Vulnerability

I am new growth in an old body struggling to free my self of old inhibitions. People do not realize or care about the effect they have on other people with their prejudice or negativity. People constantly put each other down just to make them self’s look and feel good about them delves. Regardless of what relationship their in the consequence are the dame. You can only help the way you look so much, nobody can always look like they stepped out of the beauty shop or have that molded figure. We can not all be histine or have hindsight either but we can instrumental in the growth or destruction or others. Many people don’t know what some body else has went through and are going through. They also don’t know how much it takes to gain a little self confine dance. Just to be constantly torn and ripped at little by little until you feel that you are nothing and your intelligence is less that desirable. You stand up for your self and put up a good fight and not let any body walk over you. How ever, the years take it toll and damages are done. The animosity, distrust, and anxiety you tend to push deep down inside of you, creating a wall, and outer shell. You become introvert and have to push your self over the years to become and extrovert, until you are in the middle making little to no friends because people take your kindness for weakness. Trying to exploit the help and friendship, trust that you do give them. You keep running into these types of people more often than not. In a monogamous relationship you think you would be free from this type of behavior you are defiantly not. The scars upon the heart, the soul that bleeds no body sees or cares about. You keep your feeling and emotion to your self, for this will be exploited so you give power to no one. These emotion get trapped down inside only to find more emotions being added. When you find do tell some on a little of what your feel sure enough it gets used against you. Depression seeps in anxiety creeps out you have to reel it all in and push it back down inside. Keep a lock on your emotions to keep it to gather. You have to free your self of all inhibition and don’t prohibit your self from becoming more than you can be. Keep struggling to believe in your self even when you don’t. Succeed if only to piss off the people who tried to have their foot on your neck and said you are nothing. Success and self purpose is the best revenge. I am new growth in an old body

Hacc open admission Policy

4/20/10





Hacc open admission policy state that with financial aide, government grants, loan program and special programs you can attend the college as long as you have a GED or high school diploma.

This gives every one a chance to get a better education then what they might have otherwise received. Most parents can not afford to send their children to college never less go themselves, these specials programs allowed parents and their children to attend.
Everyone should have the opportunity to make a better life or themselves. For most it will be very difficult and frustrating because their processing of thinking is different. They do not grasp thing quickly but that will not mean that they won’t succeed. It just means they will have go work harder at understanding.
Success is not based on based progress but progress in itself. Rome was not built in a day, and Egypt was not raided up overnight. Success and perseverance is a constant struggle, but the consequences of not trying and giving into other is far more detrimental.

Others might have you believe it’s a set-up for failure, that cretin people do not belong in college. There’re too needy and the professor does not have the time or patience for these people. A GED is not good enough for collage, if people do not get in high school they currently are not going to get it in college it’s a higher level of learning.
College is critical thinking and most people aren’t geared for that type of thinking. It put to much pressure on people, and they drop out most with low self esteem. Very few can gain self confidence back to don well on the job market.
Some people are more labor minded than others, and the college is making a lot of money off of the people who didn’t make it; they still have to payback what they owe. If they don’t have a decent job how are they going to do that, they will always be indebt.

Not every body has the same level or opportunities of education as others or had the encouragement they need to succeed. With this policy and help with financial aide in effect it gives those the chance to make a different with their lives; they just have to work for it and not give in to others. Belief in one self and fincila aide will help get one though.

Intelligence

You can’t judge a person’s intelligence through IQ test that a just being to learn and grow. Not every child learns at the same pace but that don’t mean they no intellect. Parent should not give there babies this test then they will try to conform them to what the test says. That is just wrong and dangerous for the baby’s emotion health. For an example: I have a friend when I went over their house the have a one year old baby there are baby sitting they coastally punished the child for every little thing. The one year old baby turned over a small bowl of dry cereal and was represented and told they know better, the baby was taken out the high chair and told to get in the corner. When the child was put back in the high chair and made baby noises the baby was told not to wine or they would be punished. I asked why put a one year old baby in the Conner and said the baby was not winding just making baby noises. They responded we don’t have that in our family the child is smart and knows not to make noises or turn thing up side down and when the baby get ready for preschool they will be put up to kindergarten every body in our family done something with there life and so will he. But I tell you he told the baby to get in the Conner and he did no fussing. Is this intelligence or condition? If you don’t think there is a connection to what the topic is and the example think out side the box. Where are talking about intelligent this baby dint’ have an IQ test but he was begin made to act like a little older child with more intelligence and not to be a baby. Why because he was told he was smatter then to do the baby things. Like making baby noises, banging hands on table or turing over dishes up side down. Now a baby who takes the test and fails what do you thing that parent would do or how would they act towards the baby or child and if the baby or child passed what kind of life would have. Either way if the parents or guardians and think the baby or child and push the baby or child to hard it can damage them and make them feel like a failer. People in general should not be judge in what the do or don’t know but what kind of person they are in side.
Example Me:
I am 42 years I have worked 2-3 jobs been mom and dad to my three children. I have worked from industrial, warehouse, medical asstaince and telmarketing to home health care to every thing in between and I have trouble getting some things my son is my toured with math and english. That don’t mean I am not intelligent just that I don’t learn at the same pace as the next person that doesn’t make slow mined we all are different. This doesn’t define me as a person my heart and wellness to be there for others does.

Fraud- Miss Media – Health

Insurance fraud costs tax payers million of dollars. Its our premium that goes up to cover the cost of the lost. It’s bad enough that the working class are defrauding companies. Now we have to worry about companies them selves’ doing it. Beginning September the Fisher Drug company has to pay two million dollars in fraud insurance practice, if that’s not enough. What about the U.S Chamber of Congress who gave false information about democrats cutting Medicare. Rep. Jan Schakon D 9th district, Rep John Garmed D. 10th District, Rep. Dian Titus D. 3th District and Rep. Rush Hold D 12th District talked to c-span about the importance of health care. This is a very important issue that not only c-span talked about but CNN, Fox News and the chiastic Priest was talking about it too. 45 million people are dying because they don’t have medical insurance. The Bush administration just about wiped out Medicare and 75% of the people are going bankrupt because they can’t afford medical insurance. The Medicare advantage pan has no balloon payments. The old plan has 95 cents on the dollar later goes to 1.50 on the dollar plus 15%. Premium Medicare recipients and the tax payers pay 15% to Medicare. This all will change when the bill gets passed. You only pay for what you use. With all the false report through the media and the republican party people are confused about what to do. The republican party is hold up the bill and putting a negative spin on it, but the truth is the republicans wants to give vouchers to citizens under 55 and the voucher ends at age 65 and it is only worth ½ less than the Medicare its self. This is the road map which the republican party wants the American people to take. With fraud and miss media the people are pushing to get there.

Fraud- Miss Media – Health

Insurance fraud costs tax payers million of dollars. Its our premium that goes up to cover the cost of the lost. It’s bad enough that the working class are defrauding companies. Now we have to worry about companies them selves’ doing it. Beginning September the Fisher Drug company has to pay two million dollars in fraud insurance practice, if that’s not enough. What about the U.S Chamber of Congress who gave false information about democrats cutting Medicare. Rep. Jan Schakon D 9th district, Rep John Garmed D. 10th District, Rep. Dian Titus D. 3th District and Rep. Rush Hold D 12th District talked to c-span about the importance of health care. This is a very important issue that not only c-span talked about but CNN, Fox News and the chiastic Priest was talking about it too. 45 million people are dying because they don’t have medical insurance. The Bush administration just about wiped out Medicare and 75% of the people are going bankrupt because they can’t afford medical insurance. The Medicare advantage pan has no balloon payments. The old plan has 95 cents on the dollar later goes to 1.50 on the dollar plus 15%. Premium Medicare recipients and the tax payers pay 15% to Medicare. This all will change when the bill gets passed. You only pay for what you use. With all the false report through the media and the republican party people are confused about what to do. The republican party is hold up the bill and putting a negative spin on it, but the truth is the republicans wants to give vouchers to citizens under 55 and the voucher ends at age 65 and it is only worth ½ less than the Medicare its self. This is the road map which the republican party wants the American people to take. With fraud and miss media the people are pushing to get there.

Technology good or bad? What is tec?

Technology can be harmful if you are not careful .People can depend on it too much and not enough on their own skills and become decadent and weak if they depend on machines to do things for them. That aside we need technology to learn and grow to become better and create more productive life. If you look back Thomson Edison created the light bulb, if we didn’t have light bulbs we would still be using kerosene lamps to see by. Alexander Graham Bell the telephone and no telephone no cell phones. If not for Henry Ford building cars we would still be in horse drawn carriages. People went from cars to motorcycles to planes to jets lets not for get Trains, steam boats that jumped to wave riders. John F. Kennedy challenged N.A.S.S in 1961 to develop a way to space, eight years later Neil Armstrong walked on the moon. His pulse never went above 109 during the journey and 2 ½ hours working on the moon before he ment up with Columbia to come home again, can’t do that with out technology. With out technology we wouldn’t be able to produce modern medicine on a large scale. With out the creation of modern technology our culture would become stagnant .

Health Care

I dont belive you should lose health insurance if you lose your job. Cobra insurance cost more if your lose your job that if you were on it. How can you pay cobra high price insurance if you don't have a job. I dont understand if you are on welfare how they can cancel your insurance if you lose your job, but can keep it if you are working. That is more than backwards its just plan out wrong. Iran and in Europe nations has free health care paid by the government. We should cap the doctors salary, buy as it stands now the pharmaceutical companys give the doctors bouns for the referal service. On are check they take money out every ckeck for health care but yet well cant get it and we are paying for it alreay.Obama wants doctors and homecare to be affordable to all. Immigrate should get the same healthcare and we do.The health care should be free or afforablle and should include preventive care, discounts on gym so people can stay healty, eye and dental care. I was wachting c-span and was talking about the health care. The republic don't want us to have health care, there was a poster board message being passed around through the republic party don't let Obama pass the health care bill case the republic party will the lose majority control and that was even befor the bill was written out and the media got a hold of the poster board message and broad cast it.The health care will cover 30 million people, 35% taxcut for small bussines, medical care part D will be coverd. Insurance cant denined covage for prexting conditiond, free medical care under privet care, older children can stay on parents insurance longer. The Republic say health care bill had requriement that people has to buy federal approved insurance and if they do not the IRS will tax that person. The health care insurance has tax credit, insurance exchange, took ban off medical insurance, expand medical care, closing dount hols in medical care for senoir and sub medical heath. 15% of the republic voted against the health care.

women work

I had an interesting debate with my friends Omgea and Anthony they believed women should not work at all. I was a single mother off and on for many years. I have a very different view point. Women should not be sitting on their butts waiting on a check for welfare to take care their responsibility unless there is no way around it nor can she depend on a man to be a man take care their responsibilities. I had to work two to three jobs to take care of my three kids. I didn't just depend on a check or a man if I did that we all would have starved on the streets or the state would have had them. If you are in a relationship it take two incomes to support a family not just one. If you are by yourself you are the second income. I understand part of what they are saying about missing out on their childhood and bonding and that part may be wrong but it can't be helped. Omgea and Anthony said mothers should stay home and the father should provide or one take one shift and the other takes a different shift. That way a parent is always home with the kids. The funny thing is during this debate my mind went back in time to when I used to a date a fireman Bradly we argued about the same thing. No we didn't live together but I had two jobs and some times he would pick up the kids from the sitters when I had babysitters troubles. My kids would walk to the firestation or I would pick them up from there or when I work really late he take them to my house. We argue over the same thing I need to quit my jobs and stay home with my babies, but like I said before we didn't live together. I paid my rent, my own bills and I did not ask him for money only a ride to work, home and help watching the kids when I had babysitter troubles. But his belief was his belief that meant me not working. Of course our relationship ended. Me taking care of and supporting my babies is more important then anybody believes. If things were different and I didn't have to work those jobs I would not. But being a mother and father that meant losing time. I look at it this way I have them and not the state and if somebody wants to stick by me all the better and if not Oh well.

Movies good bad and indeffrent

What do you think about all the movies that are coming out. Some I think they need to come out with a really good scrary moive, I havent seen a good on since I was a kid. I wanted to see that one about the Avitar or Alice in Wornderland. Me and my other took the kids out to the movies a while back I was looking forwad to seening the Twillight New Moon but when we got there they changed they minds and we saw Ninja Assassin it was pretty good movie though. What do you think about the zoo or museum or plays? Most people don’t like plays they rather stick to the movies and the don’t care for museums either ,but personly if I had a choice I would rather go to the museums or plays. I deffinitly like the zoo and I went to the plant garden in Baltimore I realy liked it there. If I could I would have a house or some thing like it except for the kichen part.I think more people should be open to all possiblities. You never know what you might learn if you don’t give it a chance. Music is versiltile and people should be to. What about Arib music or Japenese music? I know it an required taste but if you are willing to tast it you might find out its not so bad after all. Classical and jazz are good as well, but than again most people don’t care too much for it, like country music. I actually like the listed genres, but hey we’re different and to each their own.

Being Greatful

Most people covernt what others have instead of being greaful of what they have, others like to keep up with the jones the majority of the poeple think that ok i dont. Life is hard for every body some poeple just make it look easy and it not, but that dont mean you should not hold on to what you have and try to make it better. their people out there that cant deal with lifes problems so they drink,use all kinds of drugs,blame other people for their problems or just be mentelly and phsycaly abusive. No body has the right to put someone down just to make them self feel or look good. Humanbieing take each other for granted we all need to appricate others more and what we have cause we all could have absolutey nothing at all.If we take things apart and really think about it,i mean out side the box. Some our health may be bad,fair or good but at least we are alive.Our finance may not what we want it to be to but at least we are not eating out of trashcans. Marjor us cant afforde to go out and spend unreasonable amount on iteams but look at it this way a least we can aforde somethings.We all may not have the best of houses the bright side of things we dont live in Haiti,Chile,or hawii or even Japan im not trying to sound funny but what every you aer going though it could be worse.

illegal drugs

Illegal drugs in any form is hazardous. People think that marijuana is not a serious and buy it like was candy. Marijuana is halluciobens drug and when laced with PCP, rat poisoning, imboming fluid or worse LSD can severely damage a the brain beyond repair making a you a living vegetable or just kill a person. People put it in cigars or chop it up and add crack and smoke it. Your judgment is just as impaired as if you where drinking, or doing any single drug but combined this with drinking and doing hard drugs, you have not idea what your are capable of doing. Some body was saying about the two teens who was on drugs and was having sex with an older woman and cut her head off. Unless your in to snuff films or truly mentally ill a that not something that a normal person would do. Not even the sick ones that into dominatrix or SMN go around and cut people heads of during sex. Unless your into devil worshiping and that’s a different story. Marijuana acts primarily on the central nervous systems it alters the brain function and changes the mood, perception, and consciousness.
LSD create:
• Anxiety
• Tension
• Increased perspiration
• Difficulty regulating body temperature
• Nausea and dizziness
• Confusion and insomnia
• Megalomania
• Over awareness and over sensitization to music and noise
• Paranoia
• Fear and panic
• Unwanted and overwhelming feeling
• Unwanted life changes
• death
• flashbacks

hawaii and chile

With so much going on with Haiti now we have Hawaii and Chile to think about. The tsunami was supposed to hit the island around 405 pm that day, so they were trying to evacuate the island all that morning and afternoon. The Hawaiin government was telling everybody to get to higher ground, where as chill was hit harder then Haiti with a 8.8 earthquake, but they were more prepared to deal with it, even though they are in a lot of trouble.Hawaii was saying that they had to shut down the sewage pumps, so it would not contaminate the water system. The Hawaiin government was trying to caution their people even though the tsunami did not hit at the expected time.The government was telling people they where still in danger. I believe that we need to have world fundraisers not just from the people in Haiti but a national fund disaster fund. This way if something happened in the world we are not struggling to find away to help. The way technology is you think we would have a better way to help our people and neighbors without draining our own resources. They even had an expert on Heraldo talking about what to do. One thing he said is not to stand in the door ways or under the table. If your under the table it can collapse on you and they had a lot of amputations for that reason and if you are in the door way the building can still collapse on you. You need to be outside and away from any falling debris. My heart goes out to these people, but i think we really need a national disaster relief fund to help people around the world.

York the mini Philly. What do youth think?

Philly was a terrible place to grow up. My brother used to pick me up from grade school because we had a gang of boys chasing the two of us trying to bust our skulls in, no we didn't do anything them to make them chase us. It was just a every day occurrence if not every other day thing. We weave around cars , sprint through traffic, climbed over fences, jumped from porch to porch and if their door was open we run through it yelling call 5-0. Some days it took one hour to get home on a good day half hour. Around the bad parts my house was only 5-6 long Blocks straight down the street from the school. The group of boys kept cutting us off at every turn so you couldn't get away. But like I said York is a mini Philadelphia . Try opening your door late at night and find a dead body in front of your house. And you can’t put your kids out to play there either. My daughter was riding her bike up and down the Prospect street and in front of the house. She was in the middle of the block when some man ran up to her and chased her on the bike threatening her with a knife until she ran into the house. When I came out all I managed to see was the back of the man high tailing it down the street. And trying to keep my hysterical 10 year form taking a butcher knife and running him down wasn’t a picnic . Now in Philly I put my youngest out side to ride a little bike while I’m on the porch. Out of nowhere a 10 year just came down the street and pushed Sean down. I went to the mother and grandmother and they were more disrespectful then the kid who pushed my kid down. In A.D. Goode school my oldest son got jumped by a group of people on the school ground. They stomped him and try to make their pit-bull eat him, while principal saw and did nothing. How would you feel if you were me? Coming home from a long and hard day at work to find that my youngest son went to look for his older bother and my daughter stayed home to call the police and let me know what happened. I went the school I wanted to have a meeting with all the parents and principal and vice principal. One parent showed up and was worse that their child, not even the vice principal would show up. The principle denied seeing it but was caught in a lie. I tried to file charges on all those that was involved, but the police would not arrest not one. The principal didn’t get to enjoy another year at Goode school. I went to the school district and school board. I lived on queen street then but the problems didn’t stop cause I move from prospect street. Bottom line this is Philly no doubt. If you are wondering why did I draw out what I was trying to say. I wanted something better for my kids that’s why I came to York, I didn’t want them to grow up like I did always having to fight to survive. But the point is no matter where I went I couldn’t escape peoples mentality. It doesn’t matter if you live in the city or suburbs I lived in both and what I seen is that ignorance don’t stop cause you hit the boondocks. Each person has to change their own mentally and out look in life. Then and only then can you truly have world change. If you think York is not another Philly with its attitude , crime and people. Let me know one way or other.

Should we exucte terriost

There is a lot of talk about the Java Convert ion the prisoner's rights, torcher, wash boarding and how we get our information. Their is no doubt in my mind the torment they would put us though us though these few thing i mention that we do is nothing compared to what they would do to all American if given the chance. The British Intelligences is informing America's about the suicide boomer's putting booms is breast implants. Terrorism has no boundaries they put guns in children hands and tell them to go fight for God and your country kill all Americans. Not only do you have thing like people stilltrying to take down planes. You have people planting explosive in cell phones, people strapping bombs to their person to get close enough to their targets, like car bombers was not enough. If you remember Vietnam war expose was strapped to babies and children. Who to say that the terrorist won't ex curt to things like that. After all we breast boomers now and we already had strapers. They are ready put guns in their children hands. Then they a public threat that we will always be at war it we stay. My personal opine is is that you get the informaton that you need and exucte them with out ceremony. If you dont the will get Strong and there use of modern technology gets better and becomes more evasive and harder to tract down. As it is now they have many moles and cells in planted a crossed many countries. The best message you can set the sent to terrorist is that you will be caught and put to death.
Bottem line are people are at great risk and we need to do something.

should we have went to Iran and what really happend

I believe that we should be in Afghanistan. Stop and think they bought the war to us by blowing up the Twin Towers. That's why we went there in the first place. the C.I.A and the S.A.D agent a total of seven Americans in all went over to Afghanistan to lay down ground work for war. They paid warlord and generals million of dollars plus gave them military equipment to be our allies. It took some convincing cause the northern allies did leave when their leader go killed. The Americans and their allies gathered intelligence information and used laser sitting ti sup up the targets. They ran the Palestine out of the city with five thousand pound procession bombs, which took the oxygen out of the air. When they ran from the city the Americans and allies fount information that Ben laden is trying to go nuclear. Doy you have any idea what could happen to the United States. Even the the opposing countries. Their would not be any one left to oppose and it would have the United States fault. Cause Ben laden was found in the hill caves near Pakistan's Boarder, the C.I.A and S.A.D agent did the same as before; the paid villager tho be their allies with weapons money but the time their allies turned on the C.I.A and the S.A.D. The villager said Ben laden sent word that he wanted to give to the Americans but wanted the agents to come to him. Which was a rouse to give him time to escape. The C.I.A and S.A.D said their coming but in force. The allies turned their weapons in the seven Americans and stooped the. The Americans called their headquarter in Washing and them to dent reinforcement and surround the caves in the hill where Ben laden was hing. But they said let the allies handle it,so Ben laden escaped into Pakistan. Even though our government mane ans a critical error by allowing him to escape if he is not stooped he can and will go nuclear. If we did not go we could not have found out about the impend threat and would have let our people die withe fighting back. If you are wounder where i got my infromaton the National Geography Channel and they had the CIA and SAD agent who was there tell about what really happened.

The root of evil is what?

People say money is the root of all evil. Every day we have Boarder Protrol in Navada and all along Mexico Boarder protroling the boarder from drugs sumugglers not just illegal immigrants. They put there lives o the line to keep the drugs ou of the US. But its not just coming from Mexico its all over. Then you have the prostitute and call girls, high priced and low. Now the leagle system wants to make prositute leagle or less of a crime cause so many of them are turning up dead. There's even talk about putting a tax on it. What about the guns being sold on the streets or white slavery all for a dollar bill.

I disagree with it all. It's not money that makes people evil. It's their mentality money just gives you the means to do it; you hear peoplel isten to music about killing and suicide, cutting them selfs just to feel something cause they fell dead inside. Better yet with tv or movies then go do what they see. If a person is depressed they should not listen to depressing music it make their state of mind worse. People should have a better state of mind then to do what others do. Regarless if its tv, a movie or just raiso. But the marjority don't they follow others in school, the streets, home and the list go on. It's not the money look at celebraties and the lives they lead. How many have died becuase of narcoties, belema, suicide, drunken driving the list can go on with them to. Half of them have shambled lives. Money just gives you the means, it not the root. PEOPLE ARE

Haiti

Haiti is an poor conuntry that is struck with desolation of it people. The massive quake that destroyed Haiti unththinkable. The country has no resource of ti own to fall back on. It was still paying off its debts to France for freeing the slaves, back in the 18th hundreads. It was billion of dollars in debt and just reduce it debt by six million and change. Fracnce which was it colonial colony is calling for the canselation of all Haiti"s debt to all other countries. People all over the world is pulling together to help the courtry jin desperate need. There are towns know body has come to help in hait cause devastation is do ramped: people: roads and bridges have colapsed and bodies are still being pulled outl. Help has come to the people and aid with supplies it needs but can't reach the citizens who needs them.

Churches of all faith and diffrent orgaization and volunteerers plus celebraties of all kind are trying to raise money for the cause. Some of the money that the goverment of the nations is giving Haiti loans and I strrongly disagree that needs Grants and money if dont have to pay back. It will take many years for the countyy to wright its self back on it feet only to have to worry about a lone it has to pay back. When the people need food, water,and medicen plus supplies. If you are going to give money the give money don't ask them to pay it back. whe they don't even have the equipment to get throug the dead and dying and the trapped.