Vulnerability

I am new growth in an old body struggling to free my self of old inhibitions. People do not realize or care about the effect they have on other people with their prejudice or negativity. People constantly put each other down just to make them self’s look and feel good about them delves. Regardless of what relationship their in the consequence are the dame. You can only help the way you look so much, nobody can always look like they stepped out of the beauty shop or have that molded figure. We can not all be histine or have hindsight either but we can instrumental in the growth or destruction or others. Many people don’t know what some body else has went through and are going through. They also don’t know how much it takes to gain a little self confine dance. Just to be constantly torn and ripped at little by little until you feel that you are nothing and your intelligence is less that desirable. You stand up for your self and put up a good fight and not let any body walk over you. How ever, the years take it toll and damages are done. The animosity, distrust, and anxiety you tend to push deep down inside of you, creating a wall, and outer shell. You become introvert and have to push your self over the years to become and extrovert, until you are in the middle making little to no friends because people take your kindness for weakness. Trying to exploit the help and friendship, trust that you do give them. You keep running into these types of people more often than not. In a monogamous relationship you think you would be free from this type of behavior you are defiantly not. The scars upon the heart, the soul that bleeds no body sees or cares about. You keep your feeling and emotion to your self, for this will be exploited so you give power to no one. These emotion get trapped down inside only to find more emotions being added. When you find do tell some on a little of what your feel sure enough it gets used against you. Depression seeps in anxiety creeps out you have to reel it all in and push it back down inside. Keep a lock on your emotions to keep it to gather. You have to free your self of all inhibition and don’t prohibit your self from becoming more than you can be. Keep struggling to believe in your self even when you don’t. Succeed if only to piss off the people who tried to have their foot on your neck and said you are nothing. Success and self purpose is the best revenge. I am new growth in an old body